In the Lull
you forget the energy that fed you for weeks
you question
you imagine yourself living the dream and it feels unfamiliar; not possible
In the lull you worry
you doubt
you are thankful you paid for that workshop before the lull, otherwise you may not have done it
you worry more
you wonder if it was all some silly willy nilly excitement that was fun while it lasted but isn't real
you worry
In the lull
you wonder what the heck you were thinking and, shit, you talked to so many friends about it (hello vulnerable) and your husband about it and what if its just not meant to be
In the lull you think
what if I am not cut out for this?
or its not right?
or it won't make me happy?
or it ends up being a waste of money AND I have lost my job (that you don't even like anyways)
In the lull
you are remotely aware of and thankful for the course which led you to this lull AND which told you it would likely happen, and what to expect, and not to be afraid or lose sight of your dream
In the lull
the challenge is
to be with it
to let the fears and doubts arise and not let them take hold
to sit with the dream and how it energized you
It was a vision of something good
that led you to sign up for this workshop and buy a plane ticket and reach out to an old acquaintance from high school
to open up to the possibility that other dreams may be (are definitely) pulling you, and they may be (probably will be) in a different arena than the one you are currently in
As far as the lull goes
let it be
and do what you need to do
